“Flawed, but made with love!” is my newest mantra. I’ve been eagerly crocheting, and although my finished products are far from perfect, I’m still choosing to give them to loved ones anyway. So I started saying this phrase when I finish a gift, and Pat just laughs!
It’s so true, though. I carefully pick the yarn for the specific person I’m crocheting for and think about them each stitch of the way. The projects are so full of mistakes, but are fun and rewarding cuz they’re filled with love, too…. like this cozy afghan for our great-nephew, Eli!
It got me thinking about the transformation I’ve gone through these past months, years. People who know me well know just how hard I can be on myself (I’m sure many of you can relate!). But slowly over time, I’m shifting and am learning — have learned — to accept some things as ‘good enough.’ That the love and attention with which I create things is ‘more than enough.’
I’ve known this, of course, and practiced this in so many ways, but as a teacher, you live each day constantly realizing that your job is never done. That what you are killing yourself doing, is never enough. It’s hard to let go of that perspective sometimes.
So I think over these first few months of retirement, and the past 5-8 years as well, this new relaxed acceptance, is sinking in. This change can be attributed to many things: changes in health, the mellowing that age brings, early retirement, etc. But regardless of its roots, it’s very refreshing to have this laid back approach to things, because it is impacting my life in such a positive way.
It would be easy for me to say that I wish I had gained this easy-going perspective sooner in life (it would have saved me a lot of stress on the job!), but I know it has come at the perfect time for me to recognize it and fully enjoy it. And I’m eager to see what direction this new attitude will take me in next.
Off to finish an afghan before we ‘fly south’ for the winter… but this one is for us…. flawed, and I love it!